New Year…. Improved me?
Well what do you know, I’ve made it back more quickly than the previous interval.
I’ve a lot of things to do in this new year, starting with some self-renovations. Not purely externally, although those definitely are on the list. If I expect anyone else to be willing to love me enough to spend his life with me, I should love me enough to be willing to spend my life with me. Don’t worry, I’m not suicidal or anything… just often wish I were different than I am. I never seem to do anything about those things, though…. so 2010 is going to be the year for the new me. I need to start asking for things that I need and am not getting from the one I love. I need to be confident in my beliefs so that when we have discussions about the formation and expectations for our future I can stand firm and demand compromise, instead of just giving in. I need to be sure that my relationship is viewed by both of us as a partnership, instead of ‘his way’, which is the way it sometimes feels. I need to find the will power to become healthier: cook and eat better, get more sleep, exercise, and take time for myself. I definitely need to lose the weight I’ve gained in the last few months so that I actually fit in the bridesmaid dress for the wedding in 8 weeks. I need to spend time writing. I need to spend more time with my photography. With my family. With my dogs.
Looks like I’ll be busy. What will you be doing?
